[04:08:21] P : hey! sleepless in bangkok
[04:08:55] P: how r u doing?
[04:09:11] Her'ne : not bad
[04:10:03] P: do u decide to go abroad?
[04:10:17] Her'ne: nope...
[04:10:21] Her'ne: but really want
[04:10:32] Her'ne: I still have a lot of work to do here
[04:10:39] Her'ne : I can't leave them all now
[04:10:49] P: i c
[04:10:52] P: but u know
[04:11:05] P: if u always do like this
[04:11:35] P: i expect u have to spend two years at least for
studying abroad
[04:11:59] Her'ne: for what ? Do u think why i should do that ?
[04:12:16] Her'ne: I will try to find the most important reason
to do sobefore i go aboard
[04:12:28] P: hey i can't answer your question
[04:12:50] P: u have to know that clearly
[04:12:59] Her'ne: because My work doesn't need the degree from
aboard at all.
[04:13:41] Her'ne: It's not like another major na
[04:13:44] P: you may be wrong
[04:14:16] Her'ne: maybe I wll go for MAM.
[04:14:45] Her'ne: master in art and media management
[04:15:17] P: i am listening to u
[04:15:19] Her'ne : I felt like I walked in the wrong way from
the beginning..
[04:15:54] P: not at all, ..ok,now listen to me
[04:16:16] P: the difficult question is WHEN
[04:16:19] P: see?u know what u really want
[04:16:48] P: but u don't know when
[04:17:01] Her'ne: maybe i will go to USA for the short course
in the end of this year
[04:17:19] P: for how long?
[04:17:24]Her'ne:I have to clear everything out of my wayfirst
[04:17:31] P: i c
[04:17:33] Her'ne: 6 months
[04:17:46] Her'ne: maybe UCLA Producer Program
[04:18:07] Her'ne: but i'm still interested in MAM
[04:18:14] P: the point is u just say
' oh! god i really want tostudy in the US'
[04:18:17] P: but why not make a plan like ,okfrom now on
[04:19:38] P: i expect to study abroad in one year and a half
[04:19:44] P: after that prepare for it
[04:19:52] P: toefl?or ielts? us?or uk?
[04:20:12]P: and thenwhy not brush up your english?
[04:20:48] P: let me say something to u
[04:20:51] P: u know? 550 is not good for UCLAor NYU
[04:21:16] P: i think 600 is for sure
[04:21:33] P: now i assume u want to reach at 600 scores
[04:21:43] P: so tell me how u will get that
[04:22:01] P: spend time with batminton every week?
[04:22:19] P: or chat with someone u don't know everyday?
[04:22:34] P: or go to a chula book centreto find a toefl book
[04:22:54] P: come on . u know how to dobut u don't do at all
[04:23:10] Her'ne: How did u know that ?
[04:23:35] Her'ne: Reading my diary doesn't mean that you will
know everything in my life
[04:23:54] Her'ne:Why do u think I don't do anything at all?
[04:23:57] P: exactly ... i just hint u,i don't blame u na
[04:24:22] P: please see me
[04:24:49] Her'ne: I know your point. It's good for me. I'm
thankful for that. =]don't be worry.
[04:25:06] Her'ne: I will try to find my way someday.
[04:25:30] Her'ne: There're a lot of problems that you never
know about me
[04:26:14]Her'ne: It's not about money. It's not about my brain
or it's not about my work
[04:26:14] P: ok. i am listening to u
[04:26:23] P: what is about?
[04:27:01] Her'ne: forget it. You dont have to know that.
[04:27:16] Her'ne: Anyway, Thank you for your good advice.
[04:27:16] P: hey hey hey
[04:27:23] Her'ne: I will try my best.
[04:27:36] P: i don't know u .......... that is true
[04:27:49] P: u don't know me .......... that is very true
[04:27:52] P: see? butbut
[04:28:02] P: u know ?i understand u in some points
[04:28:25] P: i am only son in my family
[04:29:05] P: but the way i do is on the important way
[04:29:11] P: soi know the way to go abroad is not very easy
[04:29:41] P: i just want to tell u.
[04:29:51] P: if u have no exact plan, u will never go the US
[04:30:04] P: see?
[04:30:20] Her'ne: see.
[04:30:29] Her'ne: Thanks ka but i have to go now.
[04:30:34] Her'ne: I want to tell uI have many chances to go there
but i have to let them go
[04:31:03] Her'ne: that's so sad.
[04:31:14] Her'ne: and i have the reason for that.
[04:31:36] Her'ne: If i can i will run away from that reason.
[04:31:54]Her'ne: It's hard to understand na ka.
[04:32:02] Her'ne: Thanks anyway
[04:32:05] P: i don't know the reason na
[04:32:17] P: buti don't know how to say
[04:32:42] P: maybe it's too fast to talk in the sensitivetopic
between us.
[04:33:02] P: come on, i am sorry if i cross the line
[04:33:39] Her'ne: i gotta go now ka.
[04:33:59] Her'ne: it's almost 5a.m. here
[04:34:22] P: so u have to do stn in 5 o'clock?
[04:35:03] Her'ne: ka, bye na ka. see u then
[04:35:22] P: r u angry me?
[04:35:49] Her'ne: nop
[04:35:57] Her'ne: bye ka
[04:36:02] P :: bye bye

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